| The hardest thing is letting go of someone you love. |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|05:34 pm] |
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Today, I had to let go. I love Rich more than life itself, but it just wasn't fair to me. I'd like to thank his disrespectful, immature, low class roommate for this occurance. I'm done, fed up! I let it go for awhile, but I just couldn't deal anymore. So, I told Rich good bye until he finds a new place to live. Obviously he has no choice in where he lives, he has no other place to go. I will not be disrespected as a guest in that house, there for I had made the decision to not return. And obviously this puts a strain on a relationship when you can barely, if ever, see the person you are with. Not everyone can be lucky enough to live 20 min. or less from their significant other, as for myself, Rich was 45 min to an hour away from me, making it hard to just go up for a couple hours and come home, it's a haul and a waste of gas. So, as they say...let them go, if it's true love you'll meet up again some day. It's tearing me apart, but I know it's for the best. I Love You Richard William Owen, and I hope you won't forget about me, and I hope we meet up again some day, because you are the only person I have ever loved this much. |
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| well its been a month |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|01:12 am] |
and rich and i r back together, thank god, we r very happy and life is grand
and well here's what i was thinking today, it's a HORRIBLE thought, that makes me wanna cry. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THERE IS NO MORE HANSON??? like...what if one day...they just give up, those bois r soooo tired, taylor being a father and the other 2 trying to keep their relationships going, and shit...those poor guys...i mean i DONT want them to go away again like 1999 and like 2001-2003 its like...WTF march is NINE YEARS....NINE FUCKIN YEARS..i will be 2 fuckin 1 this year...holy shit...and i still love hanson...like THIS LOVE IS REAL...i gotta stop thinking about this....and im not on here much anymore so go to www.myspace.com/princesschefjacki |
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| I was complete until i threw a puzzle piece away |
[Nov. 22nd, 2005|11:18 pm] |
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I was complete until i threw a puzzle piece away
I miss the faces you make when we're making love, and the way you hugged me, because you know I'm a sucker for a good hugger, I miss last winter when we got snowed in at your house, I did it on purpose to spend time with u, Remember the 6 hour drive from your Mom's, even though it was only supposed to be about 2-3, during the day-after-x-mas-blizzard?, And when we went to church on x-mas eve to see your mom sing, How we sat around all X-mas day playing Jeopardy, and Ryan and John kicked everyones asses when they teamed up, I miss laying in your lap while you played madden '05 and I watched tv or played my n64 you got me for x-mas on the SMALL tv, or walking out of your room and seeing a new nude fake pic of a celebrity on John's computer, I miss being your good luck charm when you go bowling with your grandma's church league, when you used to punch the wall at the other bowling alley when you were frustrated, and your goofy face when you were doing good, I miss being with you and hanging out with you because you make me happy and make me complete, I Love You Richard William Owen...please gimme my puzzle piece back. |
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| HANSON PICS YAY! |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|04:06 pm] |
These are some pics, all from sat 11/5 cept for the one of me, christina, and lieren, that ones formt he show in boston... :-D enjoy
AND PLEASE IF U WANT TO TAKE ONE FOR SOMETHING PLEASE COMMENT AND CREDIT!!!
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| Good time to update.... |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|12:10 am] |
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So...Sunday 10/30 2am, i got arrested for the first time, for supposedly having a suspended license which came down to the wonderful state of RHODE ISLAND not updating their friggin computers. So i spent all week fixing that so I could go see Hanson this weekend. So it all got fixed Wed...24 hrs before I was leaving THANK GOODNESS! So I go to Boston Thurs, and hung out with this cool chicky Rachael, who is also from RI..YAY! And then around 5 or 6pmish I went and started camping out at the Avalon, I was 9th in line, which was sweet. I slept out on a cold sidewalk...woohoo.( Read more... ) |
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| Funny story |
[Oct. 25th, 2005|02:41 pm] |
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So, a few people have said I have lost weight and I was like yeah whatever, so I get on the scale...THE SCALE SAID 218...this is a joke right, so i get off to make sure the line is at zero with no weight, so i still dont believe it so i call my mom "how accurate is this scale? VERY ACCURATE SHE SAID...and then she tells me it looked like i had lost weight, so i call my sister to see what she says, she thought so too...so it's like i wanna go get a physical just so the dr. will be like YAY YOU LOST WEIGHT...i dont know what i did...maybe being fired from subway was a good thing...but im gonna keep on truckin SAWEEEEEEEETTTTTTTT |
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| Well here we go kids... |
[Oct. 18th, 2005|01:48 am] |
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Life has not been peachy and I have been pretty miserable, as most of the people in my life know, I am a depressed miserable bitch, and I just don't think I was or am ready for college, it's wrong for me, there was a lot of money spent and wasted but shit happens...I hope my mom will forgive me. I hate disappointing people I love but I think it's for the best, I am going to try my hardest in life and deal with what comes, make some money and pay my bills instead of my mom. I am done with immature pieces of shit, I am just way too mature for this all. I know a lot of people will be disappointed in me, but it's MY LIFE...not YOURS....I am doing what I think is best for me, not what I think is best for other people. SO....here I go, living back with mom and matt, I will be getting a full time job, maybe a part time as well just so I can have some extra cash, I figure if I make like 300 a week I can have 700 to spend and save up some for stuff, like maybe my own place or something, who knows..maybe I will move somewhere and start fresh, I am miserable and depressed and I cannot deal anymore, 10 years of depression is enough for me, almost 4 years of contemplating suicide is not cool either.... |
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| They're movin' on.... |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|03:06 pm] |
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So my roommates are getting ready to leave and packing...it's more sad than I thought it would be. They are the best roomies EVER!! A few others are leaving too, like Tonya, whom I will miss, and a lot I am like YAYY GET THE F OUT! So, I went to the dollar tree today and bought them some presents...I bought Vasty a PURPLE journal, EVERYTHING of hers is purple. I bought this human body u can take apart for Gifty because she is a medical student. And last but not least Charmain, I got her those little toys with the hand cuffs and badge in it, she is OBVIOUSLY a criminal justice major. Cute huh??
I'm done...this is sad...I am sad...They're moving.
"At lastI can see life has been patiently waiting for me and i knowwwwww theres no guarentees but im not aloneeeeee there comes a time in everyones life when all u can see are the years passing by and i have made up my mind that those r goneeee." ~ Movin' On - Rascal Flatts
SUPER SAD FACE!! |
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| sick sick sickyyyy |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|03:15 am] |
yeah so, wonderful thurs...I finally went to the hospital to find out wtf was wrong with me...my migraines had been becuz of my WONDERFUL anemia..thats right...my iron was super dee duper low...oops...anyway i figured i would share
Linds and I are talking again, i know it is an over used statement but i really do feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders...i missed her, i cant deny, i have told my bf and other people this before, wayyyyy before this. And now i CANNOT wait until Oct. 27th...normally i cannot remember dates like this....but this one...is mroe important than anything right now....ok i am off, I LOVE YOU EVERYONE IN MY LIFE WHO ROX MY SOX!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 13th, 2005|09:19 pm] |
So I have not really written anything worth while in here lately, but it is time to vent....
So last week I started AM Al A Carte right...ANGRY STUTTERING JOE is in my class, and of course he is a DICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK head omg, now i KNOW y no one likes him. Anyway.,..then this other girl got in my business...do NOTTTTTTTTTTT get in my business...so she stepped up and i was like HIT MEEEEEEEE...DOO DOO DOO...here comes will bell...and he gets in between us and is like JACKI DON'T!...love him...i was like "she isn't worth it anyway, i don't want to have to pay for her hospital bills" LMAO...anyway...so then friday i had HAD it with joe, i flipped my lid...hardcore on his nasty ass. So...this weekend was ok. I had to take the train home to get my car on friday...that was HELL. Saturday I went to Seekonk Speedway and saw my aunt and cousin and uncle, who races. That was fun...he came in 3rd, ths kid he is teaching came in 4th, not bad for a newbie. Anyway..so Monday night this kid decides to jump and sit on my hood...how about IDIOT..i just got a new paint job and a new hood...he dented my hood...so...then this kid like scraches his own car and says it was me...RIIGHT. What a fuckin nut case, seriously. These dorms sucks, I am way too mature and cool for this place..it's like HELL and drama...please bitch...lol...Well then sunday was Lindsays birthday and I am really havin Lindsay withdrawal...weird huh? I miss the girl, what can I say..good times. Anywayyyyyyyyyy yesterday i left her a comment and said happy b-day. I think and hope we will talk soon...soo yeahhhhhhhhhh. Ok..i am out for nowwwwwwwwww...peace |
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| I guess I was wrong.... |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|05:34 pm] |
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So, I figured I would come back and everything would be ok...but it's not. I'm a bad person for being pissed that someone i hate and vice versa answered his phone one night and talked a lot of trash...I am not like those opther whores, i wanted a friend not a BF or a fuck buddy...I have a bf that I love more than life itself. He has changed...for the worse...the thigns he has said to me...i don't even want to brathe the same air as you is one of them...how nice...not sure y this upsets me as much as it does...maybe becuz he was a friend, a guy that didn't want to get in my pants. Today has been a rough day I guess you could say....I quit smoking so it's like...super stressful and i am way more emotional than usual...whatever...I have had a lot of friends come and go, and I can only say I have two that have been there for me for everything and anything, Jenny and Nikki...thanks to them I stay sane sometimes, I'm done....for now... |
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| STOLEN FROM TEE |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|11:45 am] |
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1. What time did you get up this morning? 830am
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Oh geez I hate the theaters...i dunno...wicker park??
4. What is your favorite TV show? Growing up Gotti and Laguna Beach
5. What did you have for breakfast? Tiger Power Cereal
6. What is your middle name? Grace
7. What is your favorite cuisine? ICE CREAM LMAO
8. What foods do you dislike? onions!! *throws up* cooked veggies i dont really like, raw ones r YUMMY
9. Your favorite Potato chip? baked BBQ
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Rascal Flatts - Melt
11. What kind of car do you drive? 2000 Hyundai Accent GL
12. Favorite sandwich? pastrami
13. What characteristics do you despise? dishonest/liars and i hate cheaters - DEF AGREE WITH TEE ON THIS ONE
14. Favorite item of clothing? my pink sweat capri's
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Portugal
16. What color is your bathroom? um...blue and wite tile
17. What is your favorite brand of clothing? anythign comfortable
18. Where would you want to retire to? Cali
19. Favorite time of day? later afternoon/night
20. Where were you born? Newport, RI
21. Favorite sport to watch? BASEBALL!! RED SOX!!
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24. What laundry detergent do you use? whatever my mommy buys me
25. Coke or Pepsi? pepsi
26. Are you a morning person or night owl? NIGHT!
27. What size shoe do you wear? 9 1/2 - 10
28. Do you have any pets? 2 cats at moms, Tulsa and Striper and 1 dog at dad's, Boots
29. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone? I QUIT SMOKING AND DRUGS!
30. What did you want to be when you were little? a teahcer
31. Favorite Candy Bar? Whatchamacallit
32. What is your best childhood memory? The campground - Salt Rock
33. What are the different jobs you have had in your life? Dishwasher/ Prep to Banquet Cook at GVCC (15-19) Walgreens (17) Subway (18-20) Bickford's (19)
34 What color underwear are you wearing? none
35. Nicknames: Hanson, MMMBOP, Wacki Jacki, Whack-a-nut, Peanut, Kiddo, Gracey, Lucy
36. Piercing? ears and nose
37. Eye color? blue
38. Ever been to Africa? no
39. Ever been toilet papering? no
40. Love someone so much it made you cry? Rich and Eric
41. Been in a car accident? oh yeah lmao
42. Croutons or bacon bits? can't i have both?
43. Favorite day of the week? any day off
44. Favorite restaurant? Joe's cuz they serve me
45. Favorite flower? sunflower
46. Favorite ice cream? ben and jerry's peanut butter cookie dough
47. Disney or Warner Brothers? Disney
48. Favorite fast food restaurant? Wendy's mmmm fruit bowl
49. What color is your bedroom carpet? hardwood floors bitches
50. Failed your drivers test? nope
51. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail? ugh SPAM
52. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? SUPER WAL MART!
53. What do you do most often do when you are bored? sleep.
54. Bedtime? whenever i can fall asleep
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56. Last person you went to dinner with? MY BF RICH OF COURSE
57. Ford or Chevy? CHEVY GIRL HERE
58. What are you listening to right now? the tv
59. What is your favorite color? any shade of blue or red
60. Lake, Ocean or river? Ocean
61. How many tattoos do you have? three - hanson symbol on shoulder blade, chinese symbol for love on chest, shamrock with a heart and shamrock inside of it on ankle/leg
62. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? egg
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64. Time you finished this e-mail? 11:45am |
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| been awhile.... |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|11:19 am] |
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It's been like a week...ok maybe like what? 9 days??? Yeah...Rich and I celebrated our 1 yr anniversary on Sunday, we had fun chillin in the porno hotel in the jacuzzi...hehe Love you babe! I am home 'til Sept 4th...it's kinda weird living in this house...I don't know if I like it yet...I def. like the space, the 50" flat screen and the quiet, but whatever. let's see...what else is new...nothing really. Rich and I r going to see Green Day again on Sept. 3rd at Gillette stadium. They are awesome live, I can't wait!! Then I am going to see Hanson 11/4 - Boston - Avalon and 11/5 - Hampton Beach - HBCasino Ballroom. I am hoping the colleges they r going to where they r going to show the "Are You Listening?" Video, so I can go. FOR ALL WHO DON'T KNOW - Hanson struggled with their record label (island def jam) and then went indie, which was extremely hard for them and they made a video about it, basically it's a reality movie about it, it's all video from their 3 yrs behind the scenes. And they r going to colleges to show it and promote INDEPENDENT RECORD COMPANIES AND BANDS...YAY...so I am thinking Boston...BU...HAMPTON BEACH...UNH?? HB and UNH are super close to my college so *crosses fingers* WHat else....MY NEW LAYOUT!!! it's a pic I took at a boston hanson show at the orpheum theater, it says HANSON SEPT 21...it's from 2000, saweeeeeeet!!!
I just got 3G's worth of body work done to my car, and then MY CAR BREAKS DOWN...WTF...seriously it sucks, so my car's in the shop...UGH!!! I've been getting migraines a lot lately, not sure what thats about....Ok, i'll post more later if I think of anything....
OH YEAHHHHHHHHHH Ihave quit smoking EVERYTHING..and I have also stopped doing yayo...go me...save some money |
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| LIVE AND ELECTRIC TOUR 2005 |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|03:08 am] |
SO, hanson is going on tour.....saweeeeeett yeah baby...today the dates r being posted, but i already know 6 of the dates, 5 r on ticketmaster.com and of course I called the HBCB and 115 HAMPTON BEACH BABY!! sweet, i am hoping theres going to be one in boston (of course there will be)but what i am REALLY hoping for is a maine and RI date as well...that'll be 4 dates...k all for now....
TO Tee - i really don't hate you, it's Lindsay I hate I wish you didn't have to be in the middle of it but unfortunately, it's natural, it's not yours nor our faults...shit happens...i really do love u and miss u and whish everything was back tot he way it was.... |
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| Some Funny Shit.... |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|04:29 pm] |
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So I think it is hilarious that people PRETEND to care what is going on in my fuckin life when they are the ones who ruined my life last sept/october. Trying to say I am a fuckin bad person becuz I fuckin paid every fuckin bill in an apartment and bought all the food and drove fuckin people places when they needed it. I fuckin had 2 jobs at one point so we could pay fuckin septembers rent....but all this was not good enough for someone...she lied to me about looking for a job and lied to me about the day she got fired "I didn't know I had to work" BULL SHIT and wait...WHO called one of the managers to apologize for this girl?? MEEEE...they were going to give her the job back because of MEEEEE..that's right...Ya know, even now sitting here writing this I have tears rolling down my face....how would you feel if you were in my shoes..huh?? Having someone who you thought was one of your best friends shit on you....yeah didn't think you'd feel too good either...That's all I am saying..no more will I talk about it....I am not the bad person...YOU are. |
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| :-D |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|03:56 pm] |
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Let's see....I WANT MY CAR BACK...;LMAO...I am so lost without it, I have my bleepin period, THAT sucks...I hate the first 2 and a half days, I say half because its usually after 12 noon when I get it and then the pain for the next 2 days is HORENDOUS...like u guys wanna know that...but it's cool because it made me straight up tell casey that she needs to STFU when I am trying to sleep and I could give a shit WHAT she looks like in an outfit..lol...I usually keep stuff to myself in order to make no more drama than there already is between casey and nikki...lol...love them girls. Anyway, I think I have decided on a ring. Well I should say a diamond...RIch is not going to be happy but the diamond I want is 2500 without the band..but it's soooo nice, it's a princess cut half carat...yes girls....*hands out buckets for drool* this thing is soooo yummy...hehehehe...I don't have to work today, but I kinda wish I did becuz I just sit here in this apartment and ish I had my friggin car....grrr...k im off for now...PEACE |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 8th, 2005|01:41 pm] |
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Oh yeahhhhhhhhh a few more things....Let's see...IAN came and saw me at work last week cuz I alsways work on his only day off... i Loveeeeeeeeee it when he does that cuz he is so fuckin funny, he is like the older brother I have never had.We just sit and remember inside jokes and make fun of "old times" and stupid mistakes.
Ok, this story is FUCKIN HILARIOUS ok...So, as usual Sat nights are party nights, I went to bed at like 130am because I had to work at 930am. Wellt he rest of them stayed up til like 6am I guess. So I go in to wake Nikki up to bring me to work but she was wayyyyyy too tired and just told me tot ake the van. So I go to leave and unlock the deadbolt...THE MOTHER FUCKER WAS BROKENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN lmao..it wasn't funny at the time...I was on a 2nd floor, no fire escape, no way out, LOCKED IN A FUCKIN APARTMENT...So I work on it for like 20 min. Then I call Anthony and was like "get your ass over here PLEASEEEEEEEEEE" SO he did...No luck...so then I see two guys (ones a neighbor) outside and I'm like "hey,can I ask u a question?" ANd he was like "no it's my only day off and you were up partying at 530 and woke me up." So I am like "No I was not it was my roommates, listen my deadbolt is broken and I am already an hour late for work will u please come help this kid get this thing open." Mind you, No one else int he house was waking me becuz I woke up 2 out of the 3 people, they acknowleged me and then fell back asleep and said they didn't care. (They don't even rememeber me waking them, lmao. Soooooo, the guys were like "oh sorry yeah we'll be right up." So the one dude was like "BAM!" lmao and just broke the dead bolt...see, I was tryin to be nice and not break it so it could go back together lmao...fat chance...I didn't care I was FREEEEEEEEEEE...it was not funny then but it is DEF. funny now. |
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